I remember the first time I decided to keep a diary. I was nine or ten year old, I had just watched the Barbie Diaries; Barbie with a diary that she thought was magical because everything she wrote in it came true. So I told my elder sister, she was a year and half older than me. So we cut off papers and sew them together. She painted the cover for me and drew lovely stickers on it. It was great but I could never maintained it.
I didn’t write what back then I thought was a secret because I thought why try so hard to keep something to myself only to write it down and someone comes across it and reads it. So I stop keeping it.
Two years past, I try the diary thing again, I would write out random things like what I did, what I ate, how school treated me, but I still didn’t write what back then I thought were secrets in it like who I crushed on because I thought what if one of my sisters, or mum or dad come across it. I try to write random things on it everyday but some days, it slips my mind and I forget. I thought there were important things I should be doing rather than sitting here writing some stories that might come not to mean anything later. So I stopped.
Last year, I started again. Why? I thought this time I’d write out what I felt about what happens. I discovered then that the pen couldn’t really capture exactly what I felt and sometimes when I sit down to write, I find out I can’t remember how I felt.
The thing is, life is so vast and I think its a human nature to try to capture and keep every moment. Except that, we can’t. As human grow older, memories fade and we find ourselves grasping blurry images. But it doesn’t stops us for trying. Though there are those days or moments we can’t ever forget, forever imprinted in our minds.
So am I against keeping diaries? No, no, of course not. I will probably start writing one again. When? I have no idea. I keep the former ones and when I read then, I’m hit with flashbacks of stuffs that happened back then and I smile.
In the words of Ed Sheeran,
“We keep this love in a photograph
We make these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never close
Hearts are never broken
And time is forever frozen still.”
So no matter how some of us might criticize social networks; Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, they have given us a place where we can store and share these memories.
It doesn’t matter how you do, (Writings, Pictures), it’s all, a Dear Diary.
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Quote of the day.
“Being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect. It means that you have decided to look beyond your problems”
Look beyond your problems, Let God take control, Be happy.